By: Donna Rudolph
As many of you know, I have broken my wrist. This event has taught me several things that I would have otherwise never realized. 1) I have a hard time writing with my left hand, but certainly nothing compared to anyone having to read it! 2) It takes me three times as long to get ready to go anywhere 3) Taking a shower is difficult! 4) Cooking and cleaning is almost impossible! (on the bright side, I don’t mind not being able to cook and clean) 5) Driving is more difficult 6) Typing is hard but not impossible) 7) sleeping is not easy or restful 8) Grocery shopping or carrying anything that weighs more than a pound or two hurts immensely! That’s just things I’ve learned in the last 3 weeks!
You know, I really must laugh at myself! Yes, I will admit it, I’m a clutz!! Anytime I go somewhere, I get lots of comments like, be careful, don’t fall. That’s okay though, I know my limitations now and that’s just how it is. As my mother says, “it is what it is, just accept it and move on”. My body does heal quickly and I am learning to be more cautious. I guess that’s another thing that comes with age (along with all the aches and pains). As of December 26, 2018, they removed my cast (I’m apparently healing fast!) I wear a brace for 2 weeks and should be done with it!
Having a bone broken is not the end of the world. But I would like to talk to you about another kind of broken. Brokenness. Spiritual brokenness is quite different and very beneficial. Beneficial you say? How is that possible? Did you know that brokenness can be a blessing? The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. Psalm 51:17 Just as a broken bone is not pleasant, spiritual brokenness is not pleasant either. Being broken can be a blessing though, the Bible refers to brokenness as being poor in spirit. In Matthew 5:3 it says, “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of God.” Brokenness brings a pureness, “Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.” Matthew 5:8. This brings us to a spiritual breakthrough! God promises in His word, for those who are broken and mourn, In Isaiah 61:3, “and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.”
So, what exactly is brokenness? It is a shattering of our self-will. When we choose brokenness over self-will, it allows Jesus Christ to flow through us and work in His power. We grieve at times over things we have done or said. True spiritual brokenness is a lifestyle of agreeing with God about the true condition of our heart and life as He sees it. It is getting on our hearts and minds what God has on His. When we truly agree with God as to the condition of our heart and life, it will bring brokenness. God grieves when we sin. He grieves when we refuse to obey His word or the leading of the Holy Spirit. God truly wants His best for us and not what we think our best is should be. Brokenness involves a continuing lifestyle of complete unconditional and absolute surrender to the will of God. When we humbly confess our sins to the Lord, God can pour out His spirit and work through us according to His will. He can awaken us to the things of God. When our hearts and minds are open to God’s word, He will open our eyes to truth, wisdom, and knowledge.
True brokenness is not a feeling, it is a choice. A deliberate act of the will. It is not a one-time act, but a continuous lifestyle. God is committed to making us Holy, not happy. Of course, He wants us to be happy too, but Holiness comes first.
But when we fully surrender control of our life to God, the heart that has been emptied of itself and broken of its willfulness is the heart that will experience the filling and the reviving of our glorious, holy God, who humbled Himself, that He might lift us up. © Life Action Ministries. By Nancy Leigh DeMoss. Used with permission. Adapted from Spirit of Revival magazine, Special Edition, 1996.